22:34"Only motivation for what the dealer’s supplying- that rush, that drug, that dope, those pills, that crumb, that roach. Thinkin’ I would never do that, not that drug and growing up nobody ever does, until your stuck lookin’ in the mirror like I can’t believe what I’ve become. Swore I was goin’ to be someone and growing up everyone always does. We sell our dreams and our potential to escape through that buzz"
22:23
changes.
The young version of me would never believe what I am now…Its like I dont even know how to explain it…? I dont know when I started doing drugs and so much drugs…I remember last year I used to think I was a badass for smoking weed like once a week. Now fucking I smoke before and after school and I do all sorts of other drugs. I steal to get money for drugs, I do all sorts of things to have drug money…I cant even remember how this happened? How did I go from being such a good kid to who I am now? I just feel so trashy and it feels so impossible to stop doing all the drugs im on.. I want to try and be better but I dont even know how to go about it…
these past two days have really changed my perspective on hard drugs…
